been a long time--new tattoo and poetry

yes, it's been a long time since i blogged. summer happened. at the library that means
never a dull moment and no time to think. tiredness when i come home. i did go to chicago to see my favorite musician and all my friends for the michael mcdermott record release preview. always a fun trip.

recently got my second tattoo. which i dearly love and am totally amazed by. the artist, nate beavers, is the best in the world. i would not trust my body to anyone else. his tattoos are truly living art.

these photos are from right after the tattoo was finished. it's healing nicely. the pictures do not do it justice. my arm is a living painting.

and without further ado.....my new poem.....


the words

don’t say the words
i
love
you
when there is
no love and light
behind your eyes

all those words
are
empty
and 
hollow
and cut me 
like a knife

i would lay down
my 
life 
for you
sacrifice my soul 
for you

yet
those words
are not a
comfort
to 
me

they hurt
they bruise
they crush
they eat
my soul

you are a part
of me
that
i
chose 
to
give 
life to

we share
blood
family
roots
yet the words
are spoken
with 
no
love
nor 
light

if you only
knew
the love
of 
a 
mother
for
her 
child

then you
might
understand
how 
the hollowness
makes
me feel

unloved
unappreciated
taken for granted
like a stranger
in
a
strange
land
where there is no love

don’t say
those words
to 
me
unless
there is love
and light
behind your
yes

I would
rather
die
than
be led astray

9.9.2012