a few new thoughts and a poem

it's been awhile. either my life is boring or i haven't had time or made the effort to keep on top of this. this blog, diary, whatever you want to call it. 

still loving my tattoos. they define me. they make me feel whole.

took a vacation to big bend. hiking. can't believe *i* went hiking. 9 hikes. no injuries. unbelievable right? i enjoyed it immensely. i love the area. truly god's country. i only wish i could have taken tons more photos. next time. 

halloween over. bah. not even thanksgiving and people are trying to outdo each other in decorations. spare me the shallowness that christmas has become. jaded? yes. 

lotsa new music. michael mcdermott's "hit me back", the avett brothers "the carpenter", rick springfield, pitbull and phillip phillips. what's a girl to do but sing and dance. that's a  sight.

on to the newest poem i've been working on.


battlefield

love is war
it’s a bitter pill
that’s hard to swallow

dodging words like bullets
i don't know where to place 
one foot in front of the other

stepping on land mines
the bible in my pocket
shields my heart
from the shrapnel
and the fallout

I can’t hear anymore
the words are like
a phantom limb
I can still feel them
after they are  long gone
“physically ill in my presence”

give me patience, give me strength 
 I need some surrender 
it's all too much 

the battlefield 
is filled 
with land mines

broken hearts
and lost souls
wander aimlessly
amongst the blood
and debris

wondering what
went
wrong
and when did
love
turn
to hate

there is no white flag
no surrender
just bitter pills
and shrapel
stuck under my skin

you 
win
11/20/2012

till next time.